I nearly didn’t write this blog.
Scanning the bookshops in the city of Lincoln two days ago, I concentrated my attention in the theology, philosophy and popular science sections and realised how ill-equiped and ill-prepared I was at attempting to answer the above questions. The feelings of deflation and lack of confidence began to take hold.
Yet, when I thought it over a little more, I acknowledged that perhaps I was in a perfect position to give this blog a go; as my mind was un-cluttered from many pre-existing ideas and arguments from well known thinkers and academics.
I am neither speaking as an academic, nor as a scientist or theologian. I am but one Christian women who has a Christian faith for over 20 years and who has never questioned her beliefs -her simple faith she calls it. The difference now is I have become absorbed and excited by the world of questions, of learning and debate. This has been ignited by returning to part-time Higher Education studies at a local University and also following a period of growth and development in my personal life.
I have seen Lincoln Cathedral many times and always have appreciated its splendor and beauty. When I saw it again this time- very close up, my heart somersaulted . It hit me how vast, huge and intricate its detail of stone and carving really was. This God of mine certainly was very influential in the lives of people building this monument in his name, when technology and machinery were so very limited.
But who was this God, and where did he come from, and where is he now?
I have thought of God as being everywhere. The wind, the sea, the leaves on the trees. The creator of the universe, the planets and stars. A powerful force no-one can see or touch, but we can sometimes feel him spiritually, particulary when we come to prayer in faith.
Children may see God as a BIG man in the sky -I thought of him in my childhood in this way; as a smiling chap complete with beard. We are taught about heaven and hell and salvation from sin through Jesus Christ: God’s only son. The forgiveness of sins and eternal life. The package seems pretty neat to me. What more could we want?
I must emphasise here that I am still speaking as a christian, so what I am about to say is to question debate and thought, controversial as it maybe.
If God created the universe then he would have created everything in it, with no exceptions. But who created God? And if no-one did, then why did he exist? And is he accountable to anyone? And if not why not?If he created himself, as he is the all knowing, all powerful being, where did he get the energy from to create himself, if there was nothing before him?
If Christ came to save mankind, could he not equally be the Messiah to other beings in other worlds? If God is everything, then Christ should not be exclusively all ours and no-one else’s to share. In this world Christ was crucified to save us from our sins. How would this have occurred in another world? Would Jesus’ death have been the same, or could it have been different according to how this world would have lived? Surely, if there is life on another planet then God would have wanted to send the message of his word everywhere, or are we it? He wanted no other civilisation to be in existence? And if that was so, why? Why build such a big universe only for us to live in one atom of it, compared to the vastness of space and time. He therefore, would have left a lot of empty rooms in his house, if we are all there is in any meaningful life form.
Perhaps, God is not an external being but an internal one. When we believe in him we unlock the key to the door to ourselves, and by belief we simply unleash our potential because we have faith in ourselves. Things happen, answers to prayer occur because we make them happen.Is our forgiveness through Jesus Christ also about us forgiving ourselves and releasing our lives from doubt and guilt? Is a belief in God, therefore, a state of mind? This is contraversional thought for a Christian to speak off I know, but it is just a thought.
What about an question no one dares to ask:
Dawkins in his book” The Selfish Gene” discusses God as an Meme concept. I had not heard of this word before until now. One example of a meme is an idea. He argues that society has carried on the idea of God because it answers some tricky questions as to who we are and where we were created from. The idea has been passed down from generations to generations. We keep the God idea alive.
Now, we have all heard of MI5 and MI6 in the UK. The secret agents in our midst who goes undercover to find evidence of terrorism and threat. They will deliberately manipulate news event and stories to maintain national security; to help us keep safe and to avert mass hysteria. They have “intelligence” few of us know about. They are there but we do not see them. They don’t even tells us their names.
Now supposing someone from a ” Religious Intelligence”, one that existed but we knew nothing about had the answer in its hands about whether God was real, but knew he wasn’t; and chose to keep it “under wraps” in order to keep the meme idea going of God. Why should this happen?
It is a very simple answer if you ask yourself these questions. What would happen to society if we were all told that wars in God’s name were for nothing; that the Vatican could close and the pope retire; the church of England could disband and all Vicars be made redundant? That heaven and hell was all a myth? Do you not think that society may have a “nervous breakdown” on hearing the news, and implode on itself like one of God’s stars. Many could not cope with the idea. There could be mass hysteria.
I have not copied these ideas from anyone, though doubtless to say, someone has thought of these already. I am not pretending either that my ideas are in any way original thought; though my objective is to go away and do some serious research on these questions. If I could return, at a later date, with some compelling evidence that supports God- in the light of what I have said, that would be the ideal outcome.
For me FAITH has been all about believing in something you can not see. Yet, I don’t want to sign up to BLINDNESS anymore. I want to subscribe to being able to SEE clearly and I am not afraid to question.I have been encouraged by well-meaning Christian people to not read non-believing thoughts of atheists as I will surely “fall” and lose my faith in God. If my faith is TRUTH then I should be-able to face head on the works of Dawkins and other atheist and see the weaknesses in their arguments. If I can’t, then I have to face there may be weaknesses in my Christianity.
I know for many Christians that what I have said is dreadful. I will be branded stupid, mis-guided and an idiot. I don’t wish to offend anyone . I want to believe that Jesus Christ is Lord and have used in the past, C.S Lewis’ statement about Christ being a liar, lunatic or Lord as a central argument for me that he MUST have been the Son of God.
My intentions here are to prove not just with BLIND faith, that God and Christ are REAL. But I must not be afraid to look more deeply at the evidence to support this. Already I am realising with the Minuit pieces of research, writing and debate looked at by me so far, what a minefield of a subject this is.
I want to wish everybody, who have read to the end, a very happy Christmas no matter what their beliefs and thoughts are.
Please criticise me constructively and above all help me to find some ANSWERS.
May peace and love be yours this Christmas!